04/01/2026
It breaks my heart to say this, but we won't be welcoming our new arrival in July/August...
When I was finally able to get an appointment with an Ob/Gyn, we found out that there was no heartbeat. At first it seemed I may have miscarried recently, and that baby wasn't growing properly but after being induced and delivering it yesterday morning at the hospital we realized it hadn't been alive since around my 16-17 week mark....I'm supposed to be at 22 weeks right now. That was certainly a new experience seeing a baby before it was fully developed. It was an emotional time for us..
We still don't know the reason behind it but they will be doing a genetics test to see if it was genetic and if not they said they would do everything they could to figure out what may have happened to our little one. And with the genetics testing we should be able to find out if we were going to have another little girl or boy.
Part of me feels it's because I did more lifting this time than when I was pregnant with Aponi, but I hope it wasn't my fault.... Another part of me thinks that if insurance had done it's job when I filed online in the beginning then maybe we would've caught something sooner and maybe we could've done something about it before it was too late... But I believe that everything happens for a reason, even if we don't understand the reasoning behind it...
After 24hrs of trying to deliver our baby, I finally did it, but the placenta was having a hard time coming out. After hours of trying to walk and push it out, I then had to have surgery (a D&C) to remove the placenta. During that I lost a lot of blood, so much that the nurses and my husband were talking about how blue my lips were and how cold my body was. I was so weak I needed assistance going to the bathroom, sometimes with eating, and had severe shakes at times. I've had 2 rounds of blood so far and I'm feeling a bit better today and can walk some on my own. They have 2 more rounds of blood ready just in case I need it today. We are so ready to go back home... I'm hoping today is the day ๐ค๐ผwe came to the hospital Monday morning so we definitely want to be home now.
Again, I apologize to those who have been patiently waiting on replies... I will try to get to those this week as best as I can.