05/29/2022
Ok second post in one day!!! I know right.
This is I hope inspirational.
For the last several months Fran and I have been dealing with the fight of my life. I’m going to spare you all of the boring details but the readers digest version is I’ve been very sick. I’m not really sure for how long as I think it snuck up on me. It was certainly exacerbated by Covid in early February. I barely got through the rodeo and was finally able to get into the doctor. Long story short after multiple tests and several weeks the cardiologist told me I was at severe risk of sudden cardiac death.
I knew I couldn’t have heard that correctly and asked him to repeat it, he did! Fran, in an effort to clarify asked if we were looking at a possible heart attack and he told her no, you can recover from a heart attack, he won’t.
There was a part of me that wanted to whip his ass right where he sat for speaking to her that way, I didn’t have the strength.
We huddled together and gained enough strength to decide what needed to be done to succeed and what was required if it was too late. She has been the source of my strength for many years now and we prepared for both outcomes.
Fran called the kids, family and friends and let them know. I couldn’t talk to anyone. I insisted this stay off of face space because I didn’t want to spend any time with the negativity that comes with sympathy. I wanted to remain positive and looking toward the future.
My daughter, Rachel, moved her wedding up from November in case the worst came true. Anyone who truly knows me knows not to bet against me or count me out, but the diagnosis is serious and she felt more comfortable moving it up. It was a great day!!
Ok for the inspiring part. I’ve been on medication for a couple of months and I’m feeling better than I have in a long time. I’m still not out of the woods but I believe I will be 100% soon without a pacemaker. I may have to take medication for the rest of my life, which I will gladly do. I don’t want to ever have a doctor talk to Fran that way again. Especially considering this is something I may have contributed to or could have prevented.
I’m feeling very well and on my way back!!!!!
For those of you who have supported Fran when she felt weak, she’s never really been weak, I am eternally grateful. I’ve been comforted over the last few months knowing that she will be taken care of no matter what happens.
I probably won’t be posting anymore, certainly not regularly, because I really don’t like Facebook. I understand that it allows some good but it’s the bad that truly bothers me. That being said you can’t argue the reach it has, now you know the reason for this post.
Thank you for reading it. Thank you for your prayers, they have been received. Thank you for your friendship and your interest in my family, it is felt.
Shane