08/08/2026
Iām in a season of FRUSTRATION.
Things just seem upside down everywhere lately. Iāve been all over the place these last few weeksāphysically, emotionally, mentally. Things have piled up, Iāve been overwhelmed, and if Iām being completely transparent⦠Iāve been in a funk.
Lift Church is my home church. Theyāre my church family, and Iām so thankful for them. But I also try to keep up with Emmanuel Church online every week.
Except lately, I havenāt.
Iāve let myself get three weeks behind, and there was one message in particular that I just kept putting off. I knew it was there. I knew I needed to listen to it. But for whatever reason, I just couldnāt make myself turn it on.
This morning Cody took the kids so I could have some time to myself and get some things done. I decided I was finally going to catch up.
But first, I turned on worship.
And let me tell you⦠worship opened my heart before the message ever started. ā¤ļø
Somewhere between singing and surrendering, my heart started shifting from frustration to praise. From everything that feels wrong⦠to remembering everything God has already made right.
Then I finally turned on that message Iād been avoiding for three weeks.
Oh. Man.
Sometimes the enemy will do everything he can to keep you away from exactly what God knows you need to hear.
āThe reason you are frustrated is you are taking too much on instead of letting it go.ā
āYouāre filled with frustration because you are retaining and not releasing, and it is sucking your soul dry.ā
š Okay, God. I hear You.
Why do we do this sometimes as Christians? Why is it that when we need God the most, sometimes we talk to Him the least? We carry it. We replay it. We try to fix it. We let it consume our thoughtsāand then wonder why weāre exhausted.
Fix the flow.
āAbove all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.ā ā Proverbs 4:23
And then came another reminder I desperately needed:
The testing of our faith produces perseverance.
Maybe sometimes we arenāt supposed to escape the hard season. Maybe we have to push through it and praise God in it. Maybe He is forming our faith through our frustration.
And suddenly I started looking at everything differently.
Yes, there are situations in my life I wish I could fix. There are family struggles. There is sickness. There are growing pains. There are things I donāt understand and outcomes I canāt control.
But I am not the author of this story. He is.
And our God is MORE than able.
Who am I to put limits on what He can do?
Because when I stop staring at everything that feels upside down and look around, I can see Him everywhere.
Iām here. ā¤ļø
Iām watching friends begin their walks with Christ.
Iām watching my children grow upāone of the greatest gifts He could ever give me.
Iām watching relationships heal.
Iām watching prayers answered in ways I didnāt expect.
And Iām being reminded that He still does miracles.
He isnāt finished.
Not with my situation.
Not with my family.
Not with the people I love.
And He is not finished with me.
So today, instead of holding onto the frustration, Iām releasing it.
Iām choosing praise.
Iām choosing gratitude.
Iām choosing to trust the Author when I donāt understand the chapter.
Thank You, Jesus, for loving me even when I get distracted, overwhelmed, frustrated, and try to carry things You never asked me to carry.
Thank You for meeting me right where I am.
Our God is more than able. He still performs miracles. And NOāthe gates of hell will NOT prevail. šā¤ļø
Sometimes you just have to fix the flow. Guard your heart. Release what youāre carrying. And praise Him through it. š
Sermon link in the comments.