03/25/2026
Personal Story Time
I thought that I was going to be happy moving back to Missouri. Nope, I was miserable here!! I thought moving back would be the right thing to do to overcome this feeling that I had that I did not share with anyone. I thought what I wanted and needed, I would find it here. NOPE!!
Sadness and depression had kicked in over time and I ended up being in a very dark place a few months ago. I was at a point in my life where I was ready to give up on everything and loose it all. Now I’m not talking about unaliving myself but just giving up. I was willing to loose my business, my home, my land, my truck and even find a new home for my dogs, because at that time, it felt good just giving up. But then I fell to my knees, all snot nosed and crying, begging God to help me. I pleaded to him that I am willing to just stop doing things my way if he just took away the pain, stress and frustrations. Then I heard the most sweetest voice tell me to listen to his words.
He told me to sell everything and move back to Seldovia and continue what I started there. He said that everything that I have wanted was there. But I choose to keep my eyes closed rather than really seeing how blessed I was living there. I met my best friend and became a part of her family, I was a part of a community that accepted me, and I finally felt like I belonged. The only thing missing was a man lol. And he was right! I was more happy there than I was at any other place I have lived. So I said okay!
I gave the my soap business but not the name to my friend and taught her how to make soap. I listed my homestead here for sale and hoping it sells this weekend with this viewing, and I started getting rid of things that I don’t need and packing things up. I left Seldovia May 15, 2025 and I will be returning May 17, 2026. Since that day, I have never felt more free that I feel now.
We are only given so much to see how we handle things. Most of the time, we put ourselves in situations that eventually get out of hand. But we must remember that we serve a mighty God and if we just reach out to him, he will take hold of us in his warm embrace and comfort us, ease our pain and suffering and still love us.
I have shared my story with many people. Some got goose bumps, some got teary eyed, some brushed it off and some laughed. My testimony isn’t meant for everyone but those who it was meant for, they too now see how awesome our God is!
I tell you this not for sympathy but to share how good God is and how he saved me from destroying everything I have worked so hard for. Remember, if you feel lost, go to him because he will bring light to your life and brighter days.
