08/04/2023
Well facebook asks what's on my mind.....so...here I go....
Mom and Dad… I keep thinking about you even though it pains. I’d give anything to relive those memories again. I never knew that being parentless would make me feel so aimless, worthless, powerless, heartless and helpless. It hurts to think that you are not here anymore. Although I can’t help but smile with tears in my eyes to think of how we cherished each and every moment of our lives together when you were alive. To you both wherever you are I just want you to know that no matter how much we’ve fought and argued, you were right, is what my heart always knew. Just one last chance, I wish I could get to hug you both. Then I would hold you tight and never let go. You both taught me to be strong but sorry I’m letting you down… I can never be strong enough to accept that you are no longer here. On the day I lost you, I lost a father, a friend and an idol who I looked up to. I lost a Mother, a friend and a Queen of all Queens. Death took away not just my Mom and Dad, but also someone who were my heroes. It didn’t matter whether we spoke every day or not, what mattered was that you loved me a lot. I won’t remember you with a poem, for it will be forgotten one day. I will just keep you safe in my heart, so that you are with me in every way. Mom and Dad… as a kid, I had so many ways to annoy you. As a teenager, I had times I annoyed you. As an adult, I had many opportunities to make you proud. I did all that but I missed out on the most important, a million chances to say I love you while you were alive. People say that whatever happens, happens for a reason. But the painful memories of your death, I’ll never be able to put to rest. This has ULTIMATELY been the hardest thing I've gone through. Everyone around me has seen me breakdown but hasn't seen every time I've done it. I just had to get all this off my chest. Doesn't matter if anyone reads it or not because after I post this i know my Parents have. ILOVEYOU MOM and DAD ❤
