27/11/2025
So… where on earth have I been?
Honestly? I hit a point a few months ago (though it feels three years coming) where something major needed to change. Not a little tweak, not one area, but the whole trajectory of my life…
I hadn’t felt like myself for a long time. I felt disconnected, flat and empty, and even though my life on paper looked like a dream (and trust me, I have been living my wildest dreams… TV, travel, beautiful work with dream clients, my amazing little family), inside I felt lost. I struggled to feel joy in things that were genuinely joyful - and somewhere along the way I lost ‘me’
Those of you who have been here since pre-Mchef know I used to share so freely. I was unfiltered (probably brutally honest), joyful and light. I had the most beautiful little community here. But slowly comparison crept in, imposter syndrome got SUFFOCATINGLY LOUD, and the Larissa who once spoke without fear suddenly couldn’t even hit ‘post’ - Even the trips that changed my life didn’t make it to my feed (hello Kazakhstan, Kyrgyzstan and Uzbekistan). I found myself stuck in analysis paralysis instead of being present and real.
I wasn’t okay. Something had to change. So I stepped away and actually did something about it.
During one of my doom-scrolls I came across someone doing 75 Hard and it felt like the exact reset I needed. So; beginning of August I went all in. Two 45-minute workouts a day, a gallon of water, daily non-fiction reading… and almost 30kg down so far (🫣😵🫨). But the biggest shift has been the peace, the mental clarity, and the sense of direction I haven’t felt in years. I’m not saying everything is magically perfect now, but this changed my life in a way I really didn’t expect.
I feel lighter (literally 😆), clearer, and more like myself than I have in a long time. I’ve also halved my screen time (HIGHLY recommend). I swear half my anxiety came from mindless scrolling 😵💫
I think I’m finally ready to start sharing again, slowly and at my own pace. I might need some hand-holding and cheerleading along the way… but I’m here, and I’m slowly finding my spark again ✨
Thank you to everyone who checked in. It means the world. ❤️
L x