11/10/2026
40 KG WEIGHT LOSS MISSION - DAY 33
Starting weight: 120 kg
Current weight: 108.9 kg
Total lost: 11.1 kg
This one’s a bit hard to write.
I’m fairly comfortable talking about spuds, rainfall and what’s eating the cauliflowers. Talking about what’s going on inside my own head takes a bit more effort.
But here goes.
Before starting this journey, I’d reached a point where I didn’t like myself much anymore.
In my head, I was still a slim, athletic bloke. I wanted to work hard, enjoy the farm and get on with life.
But my body wasn’t keeping up.
My back hurt. My knees hurt. My hips hurt. Jobs I once took in my stride were wearing me out.
I kept pushing through, but I was wondering how much longer I could do it. Looking at everything Sarah and I had worked to build and thinking, “I don’t know if I’ve got this in me anymore.”
That hurt more than the sore joints.
I’d have a yarn, crack a joke and put on a positive front. Underneath, I was pretty broken.
I didn’t like what I’d become. My everyday outlook was negative. The dark thoughts were taking hold, and I couldn’t see how to get out of it.
Sarah and I had tried dieting before. We’d start well, struggle to stick with it, then slide back into old habits.
Each time, I lost a bit more faith in myself.
Then came the blood tests.
My doctor was concerned. The results had been getting worse, and she told me I needed to lose weight urgently or I will be in for a rough time. Not just a bit of weight. I needed to loose 40kg to get my health back to normal.
I walked out feeling flattened and despondent. I felt hopeless. I felt like a failure.
And I went straight to KFC.
I wish that was a joke.
KFC was the one place I felt comforted.
There I sat, eating an upsized Zinger Box and contemplating my future. But, as always, the comfort didn’t last. I still had the same worries, now with an extra helping of guilt.
It sounds funny now. But at the time, it was miserable.
I knew I needed to change. I was scared of what would happen if I didn’t. I just didn't know how.
A couple days later, one of our customers (Tanya) told me about the weight she’d lost.
I wanted to know how. The poor thing came in for veggies and got a thorough interrogation.
That conversation led me to Sonia Turner, Tanya's weight loss coach.
I made that first move. I asked for help.
I didn’t suddenly become more disciplined or wake up with a new set of knees. I started with the same aches, the same doubts and the same bloke looking back at me in the mirror.
But this time was different. This time, I had support, a plan and someone helping me stick with it.
Sonia has been there with advice and encouragement all the way. And almost five weeks later, I’m 11 kg lighter.
I’ve cut out junk food and sugar. Alcohol is down to once or twice a week. I’m drinking more water, sleeping better and getting fitter.
I feel about 20 years younger.
The dark thoughts I was experiencing have gone. I have hope. I’m enjoying the farm again and beginning to trust myself.
I can look towards the future with enthusiasm.
A few weeks ago, I was wondering what I’d have to give up. Now I’m thinking about new possibilities for the farm.
That’s an extraordinary change for a bloke who’d almost stopped believing things could get better.
Sonia’s accountability has made an enormous difference. Having Sarah alongside me means so much. And the support from all of you has been unbelievable.
Thank you. To everyone. You’ve helped us more than you know.
I want to make this clear: I’m no special case. I love food and a b**r. I’ve got sore joints, a busy farm and plenty of previous attempts that went nowhere.
I started this feeling pretty broken.
So when I say, “If I can do this, anyone can,” I mean you don’t have to start confident, fit or full of motivation. You can start discouraged, doubtful and unsure of yourself, like I did.
Everyone’s road will be different. But please don’t count yourself out because you’ve struggled before.
You are worth looking after now, before you lose a single kilo.
And if dark thoughts are getting hold of you, tell someone you trust and speak with your GP. You need to find help with those too.
I’ve still got a fair way to go. I know there’ll be hard days. But now I believe I can reach my goal, and I’m so keen to see what life looks like when I get there.
For me, the turning point was making that first move and seeking help. The work followed, one day at a time.
And if you’ve lost belief in yourself. If you’re standing where I was. I hope this gives you a bit of encouragement.
I just want you to know that this weight loss journey is changing my life.
I’m beginning to like the bloke I see in the mirror again. And I’m excited about his future.