10/26/2023
It is with a broken heart that I inform you that I will no longer be continuing with my food business, Syd’s Provisions.
If you’ve been around for a while, you know that the food industry and I have been in a toxic relationship for nearly a decade now. This industry has given me the highest highs of my life and has been a major source of confidence & pride for me. Food is my way to connect to people without needing words, my love language as a socially anxious person. The food industry has saved my life in many ways, and completely become my identity.
On the flip side, I have watched my mental & physical health deteriorate time & time again. I am in the break-up-then-get-back-together cycle, thinking that if I try it “this way” I could hack it. We could finally be happy together!!!
In my decade kitchen career, I have suffered with PTSD and dealt with physical, mental & emotional abuse. I’m covered with scars from the burns that are a part of my casual work day. I live with chronic pain. I have laid awake countless nights calculating prep lists, running through recipes, agonizing over how my clients will enjoy my food.
I love this industry, I have given it everything. I hope that you can understand that this has been an incredibly painful decision, and I am going to miss feeding you more than I can put into words. I am grateful for the ways you have supported me. But it is time for me to close this chapter for good.
I am going to take some time to heal, and better yet, go get a normal job and figure out who the hell I can be in this life other than Cook.
xo Syd
