08/05/2018
Hey friends 👋🏼 old and new; online and real; far away and near.
Firstly, thank you for all the lovely messages, mentions, texts and support. It makes my heart full.
It also makes my heart sad, because I have to now say, thank you so much, but Cake + Cucumber is no longer running.
It’s hard because I had the most amazing customers and supporters, and had this been the right thing for me, this could have been something fabulous. But it wasn’t the right thing for me personally- and staying in something for fear people will think you failed, isn’t a reason to stay.
We have to accept what serves us and what doesn’t, what is true to us in our hearts and let go of what isn’t. In another lifetime- maybe- but for me, now, this isn’t it. That might not fit people’s perfect view, but it’s bloody perfect for me.
I had the best time filming the show with the BBC, and the year of C+C pushed me to face myself in a very real way. I also made life long friends through this time (hey you ✨s). I just jumped on a train and realised I was heading to the wrong destination, so rather than keep going for the sake of it, I jumped off.
I guess all I really want to say, outside of my pure heartfelt thanks and love to any and everyone who I came across on this journey, is that it’s ok to not have everything together. It’s ok that your successes don’t mirror what society upholds as “success”, because what you can gain is so much more than what the outside “losses” may show. I feel sadness, but I’ve not lost anything- I’ve gained further clarity and steps towards what’s real for me.
I’m sorry if you’ve turned up here for brownies and instead found my musings and thoughts. They may not be brownies but they can be rich and heart warming, so I hope you stay along for the ride. 💜✨
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