25/09/2026
So my knee surgery didn't work. They couldn't get the bone/cartilage out, it was caught on my tendon. So I've now got to recover for months, waddle on crutches, get stitches out in a few weeks, rehabilitate as I would anyway, from a surgery that didn't work and figure out where we go from here.
20 years of knee problems since an accident at 14 years old. A year in a metal leg brace and being dubbed bionic girl at school π Years of it slipping out, dislocating, twisting, locking, collapsing. And the past 4 years of it being it's worst and locking and getting in stuck in one position for months. Between March and June it was locked in place, couldn't squat, couldn't kneel, couldn't fully straighten.
The sciatica from it, the ruined hip that's in agony. The years of being told "it's in my head", "there's nothing there", "lose weight", "get stronger", "there can't be a lump that moves".
We paid for a private MRI to prove it in April, after shut down after shut down..
Finally, "oh yeah you're right", "how did they miss this, it's 11mm and huge", "need to urgently get this out"...but it deffo can't move as far as you're claiming.
And today I am right, it floats from the left side of my knee cap where it causes my leg to lock and other times it's behind the back of my knee wedged in the tendon flaring up the sciatica. Today it was out of reach, too close to that tendon, in what they call a 15% blind zone where you can't there very well - in the place I was told it couldn't possibly be I kept saying that's where it goes sometimes, yes it's far fetched, but I've lived with the damn thing.
They gave it a good go, managed to locate it but it was hooked and wouldn't come out. It's close to too many arteries and important nerves and had to be called there. The surgeons will get together next week, work out a plan, and try again once I've healed.
Actually devastated.
I just want to ride my bike again and walk up a hill.
I'm gonna go ghost for a while folks. Recover both physically and mentally from what's been years of an ordeal
Logging out. Much love xoxo