03/09/2026
This is the most personal thing I've ever posted. But we all need to talk about this.
This year my body gave out under the weight of everything. A&E with chest pain. Days I couldn't move. Panic attacks I had no words for at the time.
Some of you might be wondering why I disappeared, or why you haven't heard from us in a while. This is why.
Farming has one of the highest su***de rates of any occupation in this country, and almost all of us are still answering "fine" when someone asks.
I'm still here, still growing, and I'm doing much better.
If any part of this sounds like you, talk to someone. It doesn't have to be me. It just has to be someone.
If you need help now:
Samaritans, 116 123, free, 24/7. Or email [email protected]
Shout, text SHOUT to 85258, free 24/7�Mind, 0300 102 1234, mind.org.uk
CALM, 0800 58 58 58, thecalmzone.net
Man Down UK, free peer led groups for men, mandown.org�
RABI, farming's own charity, 0800 188 4444, rabi.org.uk
Farming Community Network, 03000 111 999, 7am to 11pm daily, fcn.org.uk�
Or your GP. Just start.