06/17/2026
I don’t think I have to state the obvious, but I’ve been away from the bakery for over a year and a half. When we lost Erreck’s dad, I lost something in me. It felt as though our little orchard life here as we knew it literally began crashing down around us.
Erreck had to leave- to help take care of his dad, his business - while we knew he’d be coming back home for good, we didn’t know how or when. Still don’t. I turned inward. Went into protection mode. Started experiencing some very serious personal health issues. Protect my family. My heart. Isolate. I didn’t want to bake. My heart wasn’t in it. I lost myself. I didn’t want to go out to our big beautiful kitchen we had built together as a family. And so I didn’t. No farmstands. No workshops. No dinners.
I’m happy to say that God has been working hard on my heart, and I’ve let Him. I know He’s right in the thick of it and I’ve got my hands stretched out and open to Him- full of hope and faith for the days ahead. It feels like warm sunshine on my face.
Last year when Panhandle Cone & Coffee inquired about pies for their extremely limited and very celebrated 4th of July Apple Pie Ice Cream, I sadly declined. We’ve baked apple pies for this ice cream for years! I felt terrible and if you know me, disappointing others has NEVER been ok. Owner, Jason has always been so gracious with his complements about our apple pies and how they worked so perfectly for this special once-a-year flavor.
That was last year.
Today? My two girls walked out to the bakery with me. The first baking assistants I ever had. They don’t know it but it felt to me like they were holding my hands- reassuring me along the way- we are going to do this.
We turned on the lights. Pulled the pastry roller machine out from the back room where it has sat idle for a year and a half. Cleaned it off, got out the Kitchen Aids and apple peelers. Mackenzie learned my pie pastry recipe years ago and she can whip up pie pastry more efficiently than anyone. Madelyn set to work on apples right beside me. The bakery is alive today. Just me, my girls, and a grateful heart.
Keep your eyes peeled:
Panhandle Cone & Coffee social media- there will be 4th of July Apple Pie Ice Cream this July 4!