06/25/2022
Warning: long post ahead! (Had to say Goodbye)
Have you ever had to make some serious adult decisions where the kid in you just wants to cross her arms, stomp her foot and throw a fit for not getting “her way”?? One part of me feels like that inner child… but at the same time has to be the adult doing what’s best..and have you ever made adult decisions that really made you question every other decision in your whole life? Where before you made the decision you looked at all it’s advantages and disadvantages- people that will support you or not..and thought “sadly, We adults still have to make the harder choice”? On Little GodWink Farm that’s become our season.
We have Barely been on this sweet little farm for a year and some months- even though it truly feels like it’s been many years, and we’ve had to listen closely in assessments and be heartbreakingly honest with ourselves..
Ultimately we have slowly had to let all of our feathered friends go and most heavy heartedly all Alpacas have been rehomed too. Currently we are enduring a lot of loss most people don’t talk about, and hoping to start more clearly seeing the vision for our future but will not have visits since we are an empty nest at this time..
Because we care and value the people on our life, I want to be transparent. I could go on and on about the reasons between mentally, physically, financially why it was the best wise decision.. perhaps God also has plans for these animals that we don’t/ didn’t see in the transition as I’ve prayed over each and every one of them.. And quite honestly Have already been judged by people and regardless of their thoughts ,we have peace that it was best for now.
When I sat in prayer for many many months and was honestly partially hoping and expecting a different outcome, I got the same answers. I got the same peace, the same thought process every time.
When I would ask God why did you give this to me if I wasn’t able to handle it? Each time I could hear him saying “there’s no way you could’ve learned all the lessons and skills that you did Had I not answer this prayer.” And I also hear him say “ you’re not done.. and I’m not done with Little GodWink Farm or done with you living your little GodWink life.”
I also feel to my core that Sometimes,when living your little GodWink life, you have to endure times like this where things feel like a setback or possibly failed everyone counting on you.
However, What I’m really trying to seek is his will in this change of season for Us as a family, and individually..
While I do expect and have already received backlash, I can only hope for encouragement. As we are of course looking out for our future in these times and hoping to get into debt freedom to be able to handle what ever comes next, please pray His will over this.
I know the knowledge that we’ve gained over having our farm at this location is only a portion to our lifelong journey, but I’m very thankful for it! I know I’ll never stop missing or loving those precious animals especially our alpaca critters and will likely look forward rebuilding a better way. Feel free to PM if you have questions and want some farm knowledge as a beginner. Hopefully this is not discouraging anyone else Pursuing your own farm. We have MANY underlying circumstances that has contributed to our decisions.
Truly, Thank you all again for your love and support for the farm and dearly appreciate your prayers. God Bless!!
