04/27/2026
I had a friend say something to me recently: “you will start feeling like yourself again when you stop trying to keep up.” it came at a time when I didn’t realize how far I had drifted. not just from myself, but from my passion for creating.
I’ve been doing this for over a decade. in front of the camera, behind it, producing, directing. even when I felt burnt out, there was always a sense of direction. but this felt different. somewhere along the way, it became about doing more. keeping up with the pace, the technology, the expectations, the version of myself I thought I needed to become. and in trying to do all of it, I started to overthink everything. every frame, every choice, every decision. to the point where the overthinking didn’t make things better, it made me do nothing at all. I lost my instincts somewhere in that.
the part of me that used to just pick up a camera and trust what I saw. so I took that advice seriously. not in a dramatic way, but in a small, intentional shift. I simplified my tools and stepped outside with just my Samsung Ultra and let that be enough. no setup. no pressure to perfect. just noticing. and slowly, almost without realizing it, I started to come back. not by doing more, but by letting go of everything that made me feel like I had to.
