07/15/2026
This will disappoint some….. I was going to make a video but it was just too much today, and I had no idea what to say. I have always struggled with God’s calling. I have never felt enough or that I belong. I do a lot of stuff to please people hoping it would fulfill me. And, of course we live in a $ and influence type world- even the Christian realm. But, I had a realization, 2 weeks ago, when my grandson was so sick and I couldn’t make bagels: I was relieved. I was so relieved I didn’t have to bake as I sat in the ER waiting for him to perk up and his fever to come down. In his misery I also felt the world lifted off of me. That just didn’t sit right with me. I baked last week and I, honestly, was miserable. I was stuck indoors and on a beautiful day! I was baking and trying to keep the kitchen clean and the chickens were screaming for attention… I went outside and dealt with the chickens before proofing the next batch, not wanting to go back inside. Friday came and I had the world off my shoulders again. I didn’t have to do this again for another week. As the sale day went on I only made enough to value my time and products at $10/ hour. As I got closer and closer to bake day, this week, I have gotten more anxious and sad and nauseous. I’m so thankful for people loving my baking, and I do love seeing their joy- but, I’m miserable. If it were God’s calling, I would be stretched but not miserable. I tried it again. I don’t want to be a quitter. So, I’m going to be an evolver. Evolve into what I love and have you love it to! Back to basics! What are my passions?? Soap, herbs, natural medicine, teas, nature, chickens, animals, garden, flowers,books… simple- joyful. A true Proverbs 31 woman provides for her family in amazing ways that may not be the world’s norm. God doesn’t want us miserable. We have enough misery around us, we need to find our peace. So, I am finding my peace in the things God has given me a passion for. Maybe it will bring some money for the homestead, but overall I want the peace and fruitfulness of a Proverbs 31 woman and do it all for the Lord.