05/25/2026
For a few years the now, Teen has wanted a dog. I absolutely did NOT.
We had so many appointments with her chronic illness, trying to figure out what exactly we were facing.
She had an emergency surgery last year and almost passed away on the table. It took months to regain her strength. She was in a wheelchair and life was so very challenging. Her health, the homestead, our large family was my sole focus. I didn't have the capacity to add a puppy.
Then our son passed last September. Our world shattered.
Teen kept saying she "needed an emotional support dog". Our cats just "weren't affectionate enough", and the one that she had picked out a year before is was quite tethered to my chest. Literally keeping me alive. After such a hard year, I reluctantly agreed. She had done the Physical Training, she had tried to be more social, she did all I asked of her to try to heal her body and soul.
My dear friends at Wild Roots Farm had a litter of Aussiedor puppies. We went nearly every weekend to play and pick out Teen's puppy. Our visits were healing to our souls- my Little Women played with puppies, and I enjoyed Friendships that really are life giving. (Yall dont know how much I appreciate you🥰)
Teen picked out a relaxed, snuggly potato pup. Before we knew it, we were madly in love before his eyes even opened.
Now, at almost 4 months old, guess who's baby he is.... mine. 🤣 Teen decided she likes my cat after all. 🤣
Right now Tolkien is sleeping on me... sprawled out, content. When he wakes up we will sing our daily "good morning to you" song, howling together. (CD's should be available soon. I think we sound FABULOUS! 🤣) I now carry treats in my pocket, in every clothing I wear. His leash is my everyday accessory.
I definitely didn't want a dog... but the universe knew I needed one.
Losing my sonshine was/is soul crushing. Tolkien is mending it little by little, one paw print at a time. Im so thankful for such a heart and soul gift that keeps me grounded and connected.
Sometimes we are given Gifts we think we arent ready for, and we close ourselves off to blessings. And sometimes we agree to keep trying and the greatest blessing comes in the smallest package that grows with love. ♥️
***deSUCKS