10/13/2026
It's taken awhile for me to be able to make this post. Truth be told, I just couldn't say the words out loud. Mooney is gone. I had to let her go several weeks ago knowing it was the kindest thing to do after she developed cancer. Mooney and her sister Star have been part of the farm for close to fifteen years. We called them the twins and joked that there was an evil one and a sweet one. Mooney was the sweet one. She had a heart murmur from birth that could have shortened her life but it didn't. Kids could tote her around anywhere in any contorted position where Star wasn't always on board for such demeaning treatment and let more than a few people know they had wronged her with a yowl and a scratch. The real problem was telling them apart. The kids were warned and, " Is this the nice one or the mean one ?" was the standard question everyone one learned to ask before laying hands on them. I believe animals feel more deeply than we know. They build relationships with each other and whether it is love as we know it or something else is irrelevant. For me the twins were proof of this. Throughout their lives they were inseparable with only an occasional spat or two. Towards the end it was necessary to confine Mooney more and more so they were apart quite a bit but I believe they still knew nothing was final and they were still in each other's lives. It was only when Mooney was gone completely that Star's behavior changed. She knew things were different. She knew this wasn't temporary, that Mooney wasn't in a crate or just in the house. Star knew she was gone. For weeks she would follow myself or the kids around, sticking close and crying often. Stella, one of the youngest kids on the farm one day said to me , " Erin Star reminds me of the book," Are You My Mother?, only she is asking us "Are You My Sister?" Star has quieted a bit, her grieving or searching is lessening but I doubt she has forgotten her sister. If Mooney were to return I'm sure she would recognize her immediately and rush to greet her. If there's a heaven for cats Mooney is there and that reunion may happen one day, if Star can learn to stop yowling and scratching people that is. Sleep well little kitten.