09/29/2025
Are you ok? A friend asked.
I answer…. No, but I will be.
A good friend of mine reminded me the other day about how far I’ve come. How I’ve struggled through some of the hardest days, just to pick up the pieces and put myself back together, for me and for Jaxson.
They say not to look in the rear view, to focus on what’s ahead, but I think sometimes looking behind you is exactly what you need, to remind you just how far you’ve come. To keep going. To keep up the fight. Because, yes, the next good thing is ahead, but don’t forget how much you accomplished so far.
When you’re having a couple weeks from hell with animals dying, trying to re-home others, septic pumps failing, battling with people you wish you could just write off and then major curve balls at work, it’s super easy to forget how far you’ve come. How much you’ve gotten through.
2 years ago - my marriage was failing & I lost my best friend (girl) at the same time, lost my job, and didn’t know what I was going to do next. I’ve come a hell of a long freaking way since then, but in the moment of chaos…. I didn’t see that. I just saw all the things going wrong. The never ending to do lists. The bills coming I wouldn’t be able to afford. Narcissistic texts and so on. It’s easy to spiral when all that happens at once and boy did I. Last week was f*cking hard.
I’m thankful for friends that remind you of how strong you are, how much you can power through (even though I’m tired of powering through lol). I’m thankful for my person who loves me and holds so much space for me in my darkest days and helps me get through it with so much love. I’m thankful for my kiddo, who knows I’m having a terrible day before I even say it out loud, he can read me like a book. I’m thankful for a job that helps when you’re in need. I’m thankful to have my health, to wake up daily, and put up a good fight….again.
So, sometimes it’s worth looking in that rear view mirror to remember the badass that you are. To pick yourself up one more time and get through it. To seek out the next best thing for you and to appreciate just how far you’ve made it.