08/08/2026
Sigh. I have more bad news. I’ve been taking a break from the page because I don’t feel human anymore. My (step)dad is not well, things have turned grim. The loss of my mother 6 weeks ago combined with extensive cancer are taking the toll, a lot faster than we thought would come about. The nurse says he might surprise us. Miracles happen right? I feel in my soul that I am heading for waters I never intended to navigate at this age.
During the time my mother was sick and immediately after we suffered multiple predator attacks on our farm. The amount of loss I have experienced over the last 6 weeks is absolutely horrifying. I lost my mother’s favorite chicken, one of her favorite goats, my mama kitty, 7 chickens, 2 more goats. My trauma load overflows.
I have been asking, what the actual F@$& is this lesson? What am I intended to learn here. I’m always asking that when I’m going through it. But this s**t is just cruel. I said bad words, because that’s what it is, it’s s**t, all of this.
I lost my dad when I was 23. I have been blessed to have two really good dads though. Something many can’t say.
Please send good vibes, prayers, and any positive light you can shed on my subject.
