07/09/2026
Sometimes you have a tough day, and you just find a way to move on. Other times, it’s a tough week. This just so happens to be one of those weeks where everything feels heavy, and I’m honestly just quite done with it all. Some weeks just flat out suck.
On Sunday, we had to say goodbye to my sweet bubba boy, Toby. I was with him the night he was born - literally watched him come into this world. I saw him nearly every day until he was old enough to come home with me, and he’s been faithfully by my side ever since for the last nearly 18 years. I’ve lost many animals throughout my life, but this time is different.
The next day on Monday, the relentless summer heat took our best Ayam Cemani rooster. Even with water and shade, it was just too much for him to handle.
Then this evening at feeding time, we found our sweet Dolly girl. She was always the mischievous troublemaker out of the herd, and today, that adventurous spirit finally got the best of her. At some point during the day, she managed to get her horns stuck in the fencing.
(THIS is exactly why I disbud all of our kids and had I had the option to do it to Dolly, Jolene & Jethro when we got them I would have, but they were too old at that point)
Normally, this wouldn't have been a tragedy. We are all outside constantly, back and forth between our house & Mom’s house next door all day long, checking on everyone out in the pasture on our walk over. But when the extreme heat becomes such a brutal factor in everyday life, it speeds up the clock. Being stuck in one spot, in the sun and without water for even a short period of time, will take its toll on any living being. Sadly, today it took our Dolly. 😮💨
Farm life brings so much joy, but weeks like this remind you of how fragile it all can be and how quickly things can turn. I am tired, I am heartbroken, and I just want to hug the rest of our animals a little tighter tonight. (And yes, I really do hug on & talk to my livestock like they’re people - they’re all my pasture puppies & I swear they actually understand me)