NAMU

06/24/2026

This picture is from when I finally received the final product.

I cannot tell you how many times it felt impossible to create this. From getting a courier in Afghanistan to pick up my saffron, to the manufacturer’s machine breaking down, to me renting a uhaul and moving thousands of pounds myself to save $$$.

The path ahead wasn’t just unknown, it literally didn’t exist. And I was scared all the time. I have no idea what kind of crazy wild being was inside of me to pursue something so insane and hard, but I’m so thankful I gave into her.

Because now I know … we all have it in us to do what once felt impossible.

I love you, NAMU. Blood, sweat, tears, and my whole heart.

06/14/2026

05/08/2026

When I was 5 months pregnant with Ellie, the doctor told me she would die. He literally said that. If the pregnancy continued as is, she would die. I hired a nanny for Jayden, basically lived in the hospital, ate literally everything, and willed for Ellie to grow.

She was born barely 5 lbs at 36 wks — after 28 hrs of labor, 26 of them without epidural.

I love this child of mine beyond what I signed up for and far greater than I ever thought humanly possible.

Ellie, I love you no matter what you do or don’t do. I would give up my entire self over and over just to know you are safe and good. Nothing can change my unconditional and absolute love for you because you are mine.

Thanks for being the cutest human on earth, the best cuddles, hilarious, and intuitively empathetic and generous. I love that you love money, food, cats, Avatar, and a few humans. But most of all, your mama. I really am the lucky one.

Love you so, so much. Happy birthday, my Ellie.

I was completely at my end and perplexed as to what to do. Idk why or how I know but I just hugged her and said over and over I love you. I’m not going anywhere. I love you. I’m not going anywhere. She sunk her shoulders, cried and said she was sorry.

Ellie, there is no limit to my love for you. I love you no matter what you do or don’t do. I love you because you are my daughter and I am your mommy. I would give up my entire world and self for you. Because … you a

Moms are crazy.

04/22/2026

After 7 rounds of sparring at 10RoundsTuesday

Such a crazy week of work, kids’ school stuff, and hobbies 😝❤️‍🔥

04/21/2026

Griffith Trail

I think it’s the most beautiful night view of LA.

I’ve done this 50+ times and it’s always the same:
- Sprint+ walk x repeat up, slow jog down
- It’s always hard
- It always feels great

There are bathrooms + water about 1.5 miles up where Griffith observatory is. Plenty of free street paring. And the cutest outdoor cafe right before trails begin.

04/16/2026

I want my next hobby to be outdoor shooting — when I’m finally goodish at surfing. After that, maybe I should pick a chill & cheap hobby like … Scramble…

Love that I’m wearing a granny sweater in this. 👵🏼🤭😮‍💨
(This was back in 2023, first time at gun range)

***for the record: I will never carry or keep a gun at home. And if I could, I would abolish every single gun from this country and I will vote as such every time. I have friends who I fully trust with guns. But, still.***

04/09/2026

From Open House. I loved this night.
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Second photo by 🙌