11/13/2025
Last night I walked into a room full of strangers and instantly felt like an imposter.
I didn’t feel worthy of being there or holding a microphone.
“My story isn’t big enough. My truth won’t make a difference. I don’t deserve to be up here. I haven’t earned this. Who would want to listen to me, anyway?”
Those were the thoughts that had been ruminating all week. I was telling myself really big stories that simply weren’t true. I doubted myself so much that I almost called and said I was sick… just so I wouldn’t have to show up.
But do you know what happened once the conversation started?
Heads in the crowd began to nod.
Tears of being seen and understood were wiped away.
You could feel the relief in the room as people realized they weren’t alone.
My voice (and the voices of the three other panelists) made an impact on the lives sitting in those chairs. We were able to make people feel seen, heard, and understood. We put words to topics that are often so hard to say out loud.
I walked out of that room feeling validated.
Feeling like I can make a difference.
Feeling deeply aligned with what God is calling me to do.
Feeling proud of myself for hearing His purpose for my life - and actually following through.
I’ve often said that vulnerability brings vulnerability, but last night I experienced that in its truest form. I was open about my own mental health struggles and the journey I’ve walked to become who I am today - and in return, women of all ages came up to me and said:
“Thank you for putting into words what I’ve felt for so long.”
I was so present, so grounded in the moment, and so intentional about truly hearing the stories being shared… that I didn’t manage to get a single photo. And honestly? I think that’s exactly how it was supposed to be. So I’m sharing a photo from the night before, when I was taking with God trying to lean into what he was calling me to do; and honestly trying to weasel my way out of following through – I’m so grateful He didn’t let me do that.
This isn’t a post to brag on myself.
My intention is to remind you:
You matter.
You are not alone, even when it feels like you’re on an island.
You are worthy.
You are important.
And if you lean into it, God will do incredible things with your life, too. 🤍
A heartfelt thank you to Donna Sullivan and the entire Grass & Grain team Grass & Grain Farm & Ranch Show for inviting me to speak on the Ag Stress & Resilience panel last night. And a huge shoutout to our moderator, Will Stutterheim, and fellow panel speakers, Thomas Eisenbarth and Tim & Cheyenne Strunk, and our sponsor Health Innovations Network of Kansas
Thank you for your time, your stories, and your commitment to reducing stigma and normalizing conversations about mental health in our rural communities.