09/01/2026
8 August 2026: Sometimes The Hardest Part Of Leaving Survival Is Learning Not To Distrust What Doesn’t Hurt
Today an old thought showed up:
"I don't deserve this."
And for a while, the tears came.
But then I looked at the evidence of my life today.
The love.
The support.
The peace.
The boundaries.
The woman I've become.
And I remembered:
Old programming can speak without being true.
Sometimes growth isn't another thing we need to accomplish.
Sometimes growth is simply learning to receive the goodness that has already arrived.
I don't have to argue with every old thought.
I can look at what is true now.
And maybe tell my brain to grab some snacks, climb in the backseat & enjoy the ride.