07/31/2026
Howdy Ranch Fans, whats The Good Word?
This has been a tough week, its not just the heat or the smoke, those are things that come with summer. Eventually you learn to roll with it and those are things we have no control over anyways. We do have control over our time and I feel like we have squandered it, I feel like we put too many things off and assumed there would always be time for some things. Then life throws you a curve ball, it hits you with the last thing you had ever expected and it makes you wish you had picked up the phone, it makes you wish you had made the extra effort to tell someone how much you miss them, or how much their friendship means to you, or how excited you are for them in their successes. Then its too late. You have to do this and wish that you had done that.
For as simple as we try to make it, life is actually pretty complicated, I cant speak from first hand experience, but I like to think that I am a pretty observant person, so when I say that being a Mother has to be one of the hardest jobs there is, especially when one of the worst things you dont even want to imagine happens. It is devastating. I do know what its like being the older Brother, I know what its like to get slammed with the worst news, the thing that wasnt ever supposed to happen. It is a tough thing to get through. I have always suspected that life isnt about whats fair. This week reinforced that. Life is not fair and this week some friends of ours have had their hearts crushed. Its hard to be on this side of it. Its hard knowing that there is nothing we can do to make it better, its never going to be better, its always going to be there. The only thing my Mom and I can take away from this is knowing that we need to try harder and when we feel like telling someone that we care for them and miss them we should do that. Do it right there in the moment, because we might never get the chance again.
The thing that really gets me is that I was just thinking about the two of them the other day laughing to myself about his shirt that said "I'm big, you're small. Get over it." It was hard to imagine him being the "little" brother. Of course Jay grew up to be bigger than me too.