02/23/2023
I used to lie awake at night, tossing and turning over what tomorrow might bring.
I would worry about what could happen, what might happen and everything in between.
I would overthink myself to the point of sheer exhaustion, unable to sleep or rest because I couldn’t shut my mind off.
I would spend so much energy on the possibilities of tomorrow that I would have nothing left for today..
Until living that way finally broke me.
Broken into countless pieces from worrying and letting my thoughts get the best of me, I finally realized that I couldn’t keep going this way..
And though it wasn’t easy and it still isn’t, I’ve found a way past all the anxiety of tomorrow’s unknowns.
Truly, I thought back to all the times when the worst things in my life happened..
I was always fine on the other side.
I managed to find a way to overcome, adapt and keep going.
That’s the moment that I finally understood that the stress I was causing myself wasn’t going to change anything and that no matter what, I’d always be okay.
Maybe it wouldn’t be pretty, maybe it wouldn’t always turn out the way I expected, but I could handle anything..
I had proven that to myself time and time again.
I’m not going to say that I don’t overthink anymore because that never truly goes away, but I’ve learned not to let the worry consume me any more.
I had been letting my thoughts control me instead of me being in charge of what I was thinking.
And slowly, as I became okay with letting the future be unknown, I found some peace amidst the storms of life.
My days aren’t always easy and I’ve got plenty of challenges, but at least now, I can keep them in perspective and not let the bad thoughts ruin my days.
It can rain, maybe even pour, but I’ve finally learned to start dancing in the rain..
Strong, proud and free.
|ravenwolf
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