05/17/2026
⚠️ Warning: If you aren’t a rancher or familiar with the realities of farm life, this may be hard to watch.
May 13th was a heavy day on our hearts. It marked 5 years since Ben lost his Dad — a quiet, somber anniversary filled with memories, grief, and reflection. We never imagined the day would end with another heartbreaking loss here on the ranch.
Ben and I went out to check on a calf we had treated the day before. As we pulled in, all of the cows, bulls, and calves came walking toward us… except one. Immediately, something felt wrong.
We drove around searching and eventually found this sweet little girl lying peacefully in the brush, forever asleep. Beside her stood her mama, #296, moaning in a way I’ll never forget. She wasn’t alone either. Several other cows had gathered around them, standing watch, vocalizing, pacing, and looking toward us as if they were begging us to fix it.
It is hard to explain unless you’ve witnessed it yourself, but cattle feel deeply. They are protective, intuitive, and connected to one another in ways many people never realize. When one is hurting, they come running. When there is loss, they mourn together. The entire herd felt the weight of that moment… and honestly, so did we. 💔
Moments like this make me question myself.Could I have done something differently?Did I miss a sign?Why did this happen?
Ranching comes with incredible beauty, but it also comes with heartbreak. Loving animals means sometimes carrying the pain of losing them too.
Working for many years in healthcare and hospice taught me something important though — God’s grace is often found in the middle of the hurting. Life is temporary, both for us and for the animals we care for so deeply. But purpose is found in the process… in the loving, the caring, the showing up, and even in the grieving.
As painful as this was, I still believe with all my heart that God has His hands on every part of this life. His mercy, compassion, and understanding give me hope when things don’t make sense and peace for the days ahead.
These photos and videos are simply a small glimpse into the love, loyalty, and emotion cattle are capable of showing. They are far more than “just animals” to us.
🛑 Disclaimer:Many people ask why we moved her afterward. The reason is simple — we have to protect the rest of the herd, especially the other calves. Leaving an animal in the pasture can attract coyotes and vultures into the herd’s living area, which creates danger for the others.
Others ask why ranchers don’t always bury livestock. Truthfully, this is part of the circle of life. Everything has a purpose in God’s creation. Even if we had buried her, nature would still have eventually taken its course.
Ranching is not always easy… but it teaches you deeply about love, responsibility, grief, and gratitude all at the same time. 🤍