08/05/2026
What's that a new addition to the farm!?
I haven’t owned a horse since I was 18 years old. I’m 35 now, so somehow seventeen years passed between the last time I really lived that life and now.
I started riding when I was around six. Horses were most of my childhood, honestly. I rode, showed, trained, bought project horses, sold project horses, and spent a lot of time helping with other people’s horses too. Then I sold my last project c**t, moved away from Missouri, and life went somewhere else for a while.
I never stopped missing it.
There were plenty of times I looked up barns nearby and thought about finding somewhere to ride, but I never quite made myself do it. The longer I stayed away, the more aware I became of how rusty I was getting. There was a little shame mixed into it too, I think. Like I had walked away from this huge part of myself and let too much time pass to simply walk back in like nothing had changed.
And, well... a lot had changed.
I’m not 18 anymore. I’m not in the shape I was then, and I know getting my strength and riding legs back is going to take some work. Lord, don’t I wish seventeen years had been a little kinder to my knees 😂
But the love of horses never went anywhere.
A lot of that love will probably always be tied to Montana, my Appaloosa mare, registered name of Skip’s Queen. She was my heart horse. When she went lame (due to previous owners barrel racing her too young) and I was forced to sell her, something about horses changed for me. I kept riding afterward.
I worked with Quarter Horses, Paints, Appaloosas, and many, many more. I trained, rode, showed, and kept trying. But every horse after Montana felt a little like another horse I couldn’t find her in.
Eventually, after I had to sell my grullo Paint project, I was just tired. My heart wasn’t in it anymore, and life was already pulling me in another direction, so I let horses become something I used to do.
Now, after all these years, I’m back in Missouri. I live in the country again, on a farm, raising animals, and somehow there was finally room in my life for a horse. After a whole lot of talking, planning, dreaming, worrying, and relying on some very good people around me... I took a chance and messaged someone about an Appaloosa in Beaver, Oklahoma.
I knew the distance might be a problem. I couldn’t just decide to drive that far on any random day, especially since I needed a friend who could haul for me. It has been a hot minute since I’ve pulled a trailer with a live animal (that size) inside, and I wasn’t about to pretend otherwise.
There was also another buyer ahead of me, so nothing was guaranteed. It took almost an entire week before we really knew he was going to be ours.
His owners could have told me at any point that they weren’t willing to wait. They could have moved on to someone closer, someone who could show up faster, or someone who made the whole thing easier on them.
But they didn’t.
They sent me videos, pictures, then more videos and more pictures. They stayed in contact with me every day and kept me updated on what was happening with him. When the other buyer fell through, they gave me the chance to make it work. They even fit us into a day they had originally told me they couldn’t, and met us in Newkirk so we didn’t have to make the full twelve or thirteen-hour round trip.
I am genuinely grateful I found the people I did, because they seemed to care where he ended up. That mattered to me more than they probably realized.
His name is Varric. He is a four-year-old Appaloosa gelding, a dark bay or brown-based varnish roan with dark points, mottled skin, a heavily roaned face and body, and darker spots scattered over his hindquarters. His coloring will keep changing as he gets older, which is one of my favorite things about varnish roans.
Of course I bought an Appaloosa. I don’t think anybody who knew me when I was younger will be surprised by that. I have always had a soft spot for their smart, stubborn, opinionated little selves.
Probably because I am not much different, if we’re being honest
It took me, my husband, and a few friends an entire weekend to get the pasture ready. We cut down overgrown grass and weeds, pulled old fencing, put up new fencing, and replaced an old cattle panel.
And now there is a horse outside. My horse.
He isn’t Montana, and I don’t expect him to be. That was part of what took me so long to understand. Loving another horse doesn’t take anything away from the one who came before.
I’m older now. I’m rusty, out of shape, and starting again from exactly where I am instead of where I used to be.
But after seventeen years... I have a horse again.