10/08/2026
Day 2 of Pastina and it's filling my soul more than words can say.
I sit here scared to death. I sit here pi**ed off. And I sit here in gratitude.
This week has been an extreme challenge but we're almost there. Although, next week brings a different challenge. All I can do is continue to place my faith in God's hands and know he has a plan. I continue to show up. I continue to work hard toward my goals. I continue to accept the things that are out of my control and know there is a reason for all of it.
I still can't say much about why I'm PO'd today... but this was the closest we've come yet to getting a legal situation resolved, but due to a technicality... we have to wait AGAIN!! It's been almost 3 years and I just want this behind me already. IYKYK... IYDTA. GRRRRR!!!! 🤬
I will say that this job search is still a bi**ch. And for that, I'm scared. Today is my final unemployment check. 😰 Still no full-time job. I have plenty of rejection emails and texts though. I do have a preliminary offer for something part-time and that will also give me time to continue pursuing all I've worked on for Villager Eats, but it's still not enough to survive. So the search continues.
Every day I'm still grateful 🙏🏻. I have food on the table and shelter to protect me. And best of all...I have amazing friends to hold my hand along the way, to let me cry, to encourage me, and to let me just be me (even if they don't really understand). Just sitting in the dark with someone shines a light more than you know.
This weather isn't helping either! 🌧 The good thing? The sun is behind those clouds and will be shining again soon! Read that part again. ☀️ In the meantime, I'll be over here with a great playlist and happier memories, working on my vision board... after I do the dishes. Lol
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/37i9dQZF1EIUPIGuHMFwb6?si=OiQLMC_uTK6-Lt1mVIx2SA&utm_source=copy-link&pi=sWmSfGuIS3OS-
Thanks for coming to my rant. OK. Love you. Bye. 💜