10/15/2026
As I see my fellow flower farming friends share about their tulip bulbs arriving I can feel the FOMO setting in.
We’ve made the tough decision to not plant tulips this Fall and while I know it’s right for us in this season, it’s still a hard truth to wrestle with.
I’ve talked a lot about the weather being hard on us this season but my health has also been a huge hurdle for a long time and this season really took a toll on me.
From blood clots to shingles to benign tumors to surgeries to migraines to vertigo to food allergies and beyond, I’ve been through it all while also trying to run a business, grow a farm, raise a family, care for a home, and homeschool our daughter. And I finally faced the reality that I just can’t do it all and something has to go.
And so tulips didn’t make the cut this year.
I’ve really wrestled with this and the feeling of, “how will that look?” “It will look like you’ve failed.”
But the truth is, I feel like I’ve succeeded. Finally being honest with myself and saying, “it’s just too much in this season,” is a huge win for me. As a person that has always prided herself in believing she could do it all, it’s been very humbling to actually listen to the Lord calling me into rest and being obedient to his call.
I can’t do it all and so finally I won’t.
We won’t have 2027 tulips, but we will have peonies + summer flowers! This isn’t an ending, just simply a break and I don’t think we give ourselves enough permission to take a break for fear of how it may look.
Instead of harvesting tulips next Spring, I’ll be enjoying my little family on the beaches of Florida as I step into my 40th year, finally allowing myself to rest. And while having no tulips makes me sad, this feels like a pretty nice consolation!
If you too have been longing for a season of rest, I hope this serves as your encouragement to lay down the hustle and take it easy for a season. It’s not falling backwards, it’s actually the thing that will make room for even more!
