09/30/2026
September 30, 2016. 10 years ago today.
That was the last time I planned and intended to take my own life.
A text/call from my son saved my life and I made it home.
I felt at peace with my decision to die. Not because it was the right choice, but because I knew my pain would be over.
Not because I wanted my family to hurt, but because I felt they would be better off without me.
I knew they would be sad, but I knew it would be the last time I ever disappointed them.
In that time, I truly felt that everyone I knew would have some relief to their lives without me here anymore.
But I made it home. I was devastated that I was still alive.
I went to bed and sobbed wishing my pain would be over. Upset that it wasn’t.
In that moment, I didn’t know that September was Su***de prevention month. I didn’t know that I would be sharing my story in public, or be such a passionate advocate for su***de prevention.
In that moment, I didn’t know that God would use me and my story to help others decide to live.
In that moment I had no idea the amazing life God was going to bless me with. And oh what a beautiful life He has given me. Because He intervened with a message from my son. Because I stayed.
My friends, I know life is hard. I know there are moments where leaving this earthly life seems as though it is the only option for peace.
Please stay. Take a moment and breathe.
Text 988 24/7 anonymous su***de prevention help line.
Find your life worth living. Because it so very much is.
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